Clair de lune

Well, was busy modeling the moon for the previous image ( Earth! ) but landed up making this. This is a composite of two pictures clicked by me. There is a landscape in the image, but its lost in the night scene. I know the render aint that good... n that is something cause of my camera. The images themselves are noisy. I really need to figure out how to cut it out. As always, I'll need your feedback. :)

Earth!

This is another one from my outer space infatuation. Its incomplete though... please help me with ideas... and a name for it too.

New Born!

Hi. I know its been too long since the last post. Had been caught up with work, rather useless work.

But I did do something useful. This has come after watching hours and hours of Discovery Channel and History Channel. I call it ' New Born! ' . It is a star that's struggling to make its own identity in this immense universe. Just like us. In case you are not aware, a star actually goes through a 'life cycle', where it is born , then lives its lifespan, grows old and then dies. We too are governed by that same law. We say that when someone dies here, he becomes a star. When a star dies, does it become a human?

For the rains...

Finally monsoon's here... what a relief! But honestly it caught me unawares. I wasn't expecting it to rain so soon. I wasn't ready for it. No boots for rain, no umbrellas, no water-proof bags. Nothing! And the rain comes pouring. So here I am sitting in my home staring at the computer, wondering what to do? So, I decided to make a little something for the rains. This image a 3D S Max render. took around 10 min to model and 4 hrs to texture. Though it it is incomplete, just have a look at it. :)

I Believe !

Well, I have decided to publish the images that I create.

The image here is named ' I Believe '. I have actually made this as an illustration for an article with the same title. The author is depressed whenever she hears or a tragic news. She cannot bear the fact that humans can be so inhuman. She wonders how can somebody abandon a new born infant? Or why some believe killing innocent people is a solution to the growing intolerance? How can someone rape a minor girl?... So I have represented this society with a bleeding and wounded heart. But here the author sees a ray of hope when a young childless couple decides to adopt the abandoned baby. When hundreds of people come ahead and help the wounded from a train blast. How the little girl finds courage to face an unjust world... these deeds of humanity and kindness is like a bandaid for this heart. This is what I Believe.

The author's blog : http://gunjan1986.spaces.live.com

Turning over a new leaf

I know very few people know about this blog. And I happened to read through the old posts. What I found out is that, my blog looks so sad. It only got sad stuff. I am a very cheerful person. My blog does not look cheerful. So now on I shall only out up happy stuff. Something that will put up a smile on everyone's face.

Worst month ever !

I'll probably never forget this month... so many things happened... made so many mistakes... lost a very dear friend. Its been a fortnight that I lost a dear friend... I dont know who should be responsible for this? Many a times I feel was it foolishness? Or is it my unnatural ego and unforgiving attitude? Have I started thinking that I am the wisest person on this planet, the only sane human on earth? I made choices that I knew that I will regret for my whole life, I was aware of all the that would happen to me, but then why did I do that ? There is no explanation. I always thought that I am very rational, very understanding, very patient. But I still did things completely opposite. I wonder if I will ever forgive myself, but a loss is a loss. I long to see u my sweetheart, I long to touch you. I know you have the blood of the warrior clan, you will not compromise. But can you be saner that I am. Please save me from my misery. And then comes my mother's illness. I cannot bear the sight. I cannot see her suffer, I find myself so helpless. I often get angry at what's happening to me. I am falling. I am getting impatient.

Gasping for breath, but got no fear

Everyday of my life, I run around to earn a living. To have a better future. I live life the way I want to. All I know to do is sign songs of my misery. My struggle keeps me away from the world. I dont have friends to talk to. I dont have a family to share my worries. Now when I say I dont have friend and family, I mean that I am never there to talk to them or 'be' with them. It is kinda hard, but I never worry. I dont have time to worry! Whenever I feel that I am not what I am, I get scared. But there's something special this time. I have no fear. There is something that has kept my heart aloft. Is it the season ? Or is it someone... all I know there IS something special.

And I so wish I could talk to you today. I've never tried so hard and failed. Waiting for you to come back.

I carry your heart with me

This is for you dear!

I am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear;
And whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)
I fear no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet)
I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
And whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
And the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
Which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide
And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart
I carry it in my heart

-E E Cummings